Bad Relationship

,,I'm embarrassed to admit this, but I love smoking. Cigarettes relax and comfort me. They've been with me through the ups and downs of my life and feel like a close friend. Sounds crazy I know, but that is the truth of it. How can I hope to quit for good when I love smoking?''

This was my speech until now. Until today. Logically speaking, I know that cigarettes, which are full of toxins of the worst kind, are nothing even close to being my "friend." Emotionally, however, years of tobacco use have taught me that cigarettes help me with everything from concentration issues to anger management.
I've learned to look at smoking as a buddy that helps me cope.
The Truth About Smoking Pleasure
As smoker, you live in an almost constant state of nicotine withdrawal, from the first cigarette of the day until the last.
As soon as you stub out a cigarette, the level of nicotine in the bloodstream begins to drop, signaling the start of nicotine withdrawal. Within a half hour, you're thinking about the next cigarette, and by the one-hour mark, most smokers are edgy and uncomfortable.
You light a cigarette and within a few puffs, the discomforts ease up. Chemically, you've gotten that dopamine rush that comes when nicotine attaches to receptors in your brains. The tension is gone and you're back to feeling comfortable. It won't last long, though, because within a half hour to an hour, the process will repeat itself. It is this pattern of nicotine depletion and replenishment in the bloodstream that you have learned to think of as "smoking pleasure."
Over time, that physical need, which is all about addiction, gets attached to every emotion and event in your life.
And like Pavlov's dogs, you learn to crave a cigarette when difficult emotions come, even if the nicotine level in your bloodstream is topped off. Smoking has become your "friend," your "companion" in times of stress.

If You Want to Change Your Life, Change Your Mind.
True and lasting recovery from nicotine addiction must involve changing your relationship to smoking. You have to coax out all of the fallacies you've taught yourself over the years and look at them in the light of day.
Give recovery from nicotine addiction all of your attention and know that you are not a helpless slave. You can reclaim your life and get to a place where smoking no longer has the power to influence you.
Do this not for saving money, not because it is not a nice habit, but for you! For your health and, most of all, for your freedom.

Here is a book I think you would find helpful.