How I stopped and let it be

I could feel the hesitation, I could push the right buttons, lead the way...I thought about it, I almost played with this idea.

Instead, I chose to stop.
And breathe.

Maybe this time I want to be surprised.
I want the butterflies in my stomach.
I want the stupid smile on my face, the singing in the shower, the ,,so happy that it hurts" feeling.

Maybe this time I'll just let the universe do it's magic.And believe again.